Again....haven't blog for a LONG time! Things have been really crazy this month. From now till the end of July, I'll have to finish 2 group papers, 1 individual paper, 1 assignment, and 1 three hour presentation. Was kinda' discouraged a little while ago, because once again, it felt like I was putting in so much effort but ended up with getting nothing. But I'm really glad that I went to see the TA today. She informed me that I'm actually doing fine in the class....when I thought I was doing poorly. Maybe I was blind the other day...I thought I saw that a lot of students did super well when I checked the list. My TA said she thinks I will do well in this course...haha...I don't know why she said that...maybe just to comfort me? But I think I'm gonna believe in it. You must be wondering why I care so much....well that's what happens when you're desperate about something. There are actually strong reasons behind my desperate-ness. Yep, but despite my desperate-ness, I'm gonna forget about the sunk cost and look forward.

I've been able to figure out many things lately. In terms of my job plans, I think I already know what my next step is. So overall, I don't think I'm confused anymore. ^_^

Man....I'm really getting lazy in updating my blog. hahah...and people are getting lazy in reading my blogs too. Well, it's still good for self-expression once in awhile.

So, I just went to hiphop class this morning. It was a good workout. Some of the dance moves are getting more complicated though. I was gonna' do bellydancing as well.....on mondays....but that means I'll have to make an extra trip up to sfu just for this......really want to go, but let's see if I have the motivation + energy to do that as well.

Have been meeting with my group members these couple weeks to prepare for our presentations/papers. There are some frustrations. Have been questioning myself about the word 'committment'. Seems like I am always the one who puts in a lot of committment to things, but others just aren't the same. Sometimes I wonder if I should lower my level of committment....just so that it's less draining on myself? But well...knowing what kind of person I am, I don't think I can. At least I know one thing for certain though....by being so committed to things/people, I can say to this day that I don't really have many regrets. Things like 'oh....I should've done it back then.' I dunno....I just think when opportunities come, you should grab onto them. It's all about doing things at the right time, cuz' days after that, the situations might be different already.

So lately, I've become more open-minded. However, I have decided that there are certain things/beliefs that I would still like to stick to, w/o becoming too open-minded about them.

Did I tell you guys about this one guy in one of my groups....how at the beginning, I kinda wanted to smack him on the face because he kept smiling when I am talking about serious stuff? Normally I like smiley people....but when you are talking about serious things and he keeps smiling....you just feel that he isn't really paying attention to you and he's not serious about the project. But surprisingly, he proved me wrong in the end. I have some thoughts on this...but gotta' head to class now....haha....so maybe I'll continue expanding later on...if I feel like it....LOLOL.

Ciao ~